Does your blinker freeze?

I am convinced that there is blinker fluid. I was driving the other night when it was about -22000.500 degrees outside, and I needed to turn right so I put my blinker on. The light turned on, but it refused to blink. I at least thought to frantically turn it off and on to make it appear like it was blinking. I had to make that silly blinker blink. Without success, I hit it and jiggled it and flicked it up and down until I came to the moment of realization. It just needs to thaw! And sure enough, the next day when I needed to turn a corner, my blinker blinked.

If I had to be someone else...

I would be Audrey Hepburn, ok so my first choice is Joan of Arc but I wouldn't mind being Hepburn! She's elegant, beautiful, with a silly innocence in the way she carries herself, but she has an unexpected spunk. Many of her movies are some of my all-time favorites like "Breakfast at Tiffany's." Classics. I'm currently watching "Funny Face"...well while double tasking. She's silly and beautiful and sort of out of control. Ah so absolutely beautiful! ;)

afraid

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JMJ

Sometimes, I am scared of the next day or the next year, and sometimes when I really get to thinking too much, I 'm scared of life. And it's when I let the fear take over that I freeze. I can't go on. But then I go to mass, and I'm forced to stop for just a moment, really stop and take a break from the rush of life. What am I afraid of? Failure? Loss of a loved one? Pain? Death? How can I fear these when I can receive my God in the humblest form of bread? Neither failure nor loss nor pain nor death can ever stop me from fulfilling my purpose, to love and be loved by God. He is my beginning and my end; and if I only surrender all of my fears to Him, I reach All that Matters. The one who is anchored to the cross can never be destroyed by trial.

Love

I love swiss cheese.

I love brown mooing cows.

I love white sneakers.

I love you.

I love God.


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Final Adventures

I am considering at this moment that next week could be my last week of finals EVER!!! How unreal is that? Ok true, so I am dreaming of going to grad school one day but to be graduating with a bachelor's degree finally after years of all nighters and tears and throwing pillows across my room in rage, I'm DONE....Please, I just need a moment...ok, I think I'm good now.

I feel almost as though I'm floating in limbo at this moment. I do have dreams, lots of dreams. Dreams of where I want to live and travel, dreams of what I want to do and become. I have NO IDEA where God may be taking me in the next week, month, year. I am still waiting to hear if someone is brave enough to hire me. Absolutely terrifying but so beautiful at the same time. It's as though I'm free falling through the air and I can only trust that God will catch me. Not exactly the way I prefer to do things. I would love to have my life a little more scheduled out, but God really isn't giving much of a choice.

This morning, I dragged myself out of bed to be shocked by the cold air in my room. I grumbled as I showered, dressed, and started my car. While I was walking to Jerdine Hall on campus, it suddenly hit me. We are SO blessed! To have warm water for showers, heat for our homes and cars, thick coats for these blustery winters. We haven't always had such conveniences, and here I am complaining. I have no reason to be worried about my future. God takes care of my most miniscule needs. Thank you God for taking care of me and putting up with my whines!

I need to get back to finishing my final papers and projects.... I'll write to you soon!

Sincerely,
Winded

The Office

So I spend about half of my week in the office and half of the week out on the road visiting the teams and going to meetings. I personally prefer being on the road over sitting behind a desk.

Because my boss is gone for a month in Australia, I have his office until he returns. I, the young intern still in college, I love walking past all of the secretaries working in their cubicles without privacy for the last 50 years into my own private office with a desk, reclining rolly office chair, corner table (for my clients of course), library full of books and secret stash of candy, and a computer. I plop down nearly falling out of my chair and flip on my music.

I start with the email immediately, but by the time it hits 9:49 am, I'm already watching the clock for lunch break. I stare at the computer screen trying to think of just the right phrase. Have you ever stared at a screen so long that you began to see visions on the screen? I need a break so I pretend I have to go to the restroom. Today, when i went to the restroom, someone before me left the toilet clogged. Alicia, of course, thought she could flush it. The water rose as normal but then the water continued to rise. Water nearly overflowing, I ran out of the bathroom asking the secretaries what the front desk number is to get maintenance. I dial as they smirk.

"Laura, can you send maintenance upstairs quick? This is Alicia. Yeah the toilet is overflowing...no, not on the floor yet. Thanks."

Of course, everyone thinks the mess is mine. gross.

Lesson Number One. Never report clogged toilets especially if it's not your own.

Growing Up

So I'm pretty certain that people grow and change their entire life. However, this summer seems to be a tad different for me. Almost as though the little girl that I have clung to is running away and leaving an awkward young, adult woman behind to figure out this whole real world deal really fast. It starts with my signing up to work for my boss Mark T and the Totus Tuus program for an internship, as well as trying to figure out where I want to be working in January, and what in the heck is God calling me to?? I have no clue what I'm doing!

So this blog is just little snippets of my life starting with this summer and my internship so that you can enjoy my attempts at life. I really, really want to do things right the first time. I don't like making mistakes. But I'm beginning to see more that if I must fail, I want to be a failure for Christ moreso than a success for the world.